Entry V; Sunday January 10, 2021

Greetings.
There is no time like the present. Take a good look around you. Seriously, stop and take a minute to yourself to really soak everything in; breathe and let the sights, smells, thoughts and emotions set in. Tomorrow they will not be the same. Change is coming whether you want it or not, like it or not, accept it or not. Change is inevitable. When I think about the future, I begin to feel nauseous, light headed, anxiety and my adrenaline skyrocket. I’d be lying to myself and everyone else if I said I wasn’t absolutely terrified of the future.

My dreams are a reflection of people, places, things, and scenarios that have shaped me and although I can say I am proud how I am, certain [for whatever reason] dark elements still linger on in thought and mind. Images have been seeded that will never decay through time. However, time itself it changing and shaping our current realities into our own individual and personalities heaven or hell. At times, time is at a complete standstill; others, days and weeks go by without having a single reflection on the present.

​Truly appreciate what you have right now. Things will not be the same today as they are tomorrow, just as they weren’t yesterday as they are today. Take a moment...for you...to be aware of your existence and your reality. Be better. Do better. For yourself and for those around you. The life modeled for you was eventually given to you to shape at your leisure and in your own fashion, so mold it into one you never need a vacation from; develop a stability in your mind, body, and soul, for time is changing and you’ll need the strength to carry on.